I don't exist...

I don't exist
i'm just a fragment of your imagination
i don't exist
it was a delusion that kept me alive for so long
but it was just a matter of time
before the mist uplifted
and left no traces
i don't exist
i was the non-existent breeze in a humid day
i was the non-existent sun in the starry night
i was the non-existent water in drought
i don't exist
i was merely a trick of time
i was the non-existent shadow in darkness
i was the gamble that never paid-off
i am those people who never showed up
i am those wishes that never fulfilled
i am those dreams that never came true
i don't exist

05th November 2011

i can actually see the clouds moving, heading towards their unknown destiny. going somewhere and not knowing where. i know how it feels like as i too am moving don't know if i am moving forward or backwards. i've been this way for years now. don't know what it is. i guess i am just wired wrong. i feel the urge to shout at everyone. i feel angry at everyone. wish i knew why. someone actually said something like this to my boss"what has happened to irfan, he has been acting like a angry young man, and i feel scared". when i heard that i was like what? that is so not true . but then i thought about it and it makes me angrier that i am becoming a crackpot who knows nothing except shouting at people so, since then i am trying to be calm which makes me angrier and sad but at least i am not shouting anymore, i stopped arguing as well. i've accepted the fact that i am a misfit so i should let it be. let the world live their way. don't ask don't argue, just obey, just listen and tell them that they are right. just don't listen to what your head is telling you. i actually told my head that i am not going to answer anyone so deal with it :P. btw i've started reading this book called "the piture of dorian grey" and its gooooddd.Eid holidays are starting from tomorrow i kinda wanted it.

Insano Ki Basti..

Insano ki basti main yeh kaisa shor sharaba hai
lutey huey kuch log kharey hain
katey pitey kuch jism parey hain
sanatey ki good main jaisey aah o fugan si barpa hai
insano ki basti main yeh kaisa shor sharaba hai
Kuch lashey chotey bachon kay
kuch siskian unki maoon ki
kuch shaanain chaand buzurgon ki
kuch azmatain dars gahon ki
Khoos o kaza ki mang main jaisey rang khiza ka dala hai
Insano ki basti main yeh kasia shor sharaba hai.

Akela Hun.

Bistar-e-Marg pay leta hun
Akela hun.
Subhe wisal say guzra hun
Akela hun.
Khawab daikhey they mainey pholon kay
Ajj sehra main betha hun
Akela hun.
Shab-e-Firaq ki umeed ki thi mainey bhi
Ab is zindan main betha hun
Akela hun.
Zindagi daud rahi hai subha shamo main
Main inko jhel raha hun
Akela hun.
Faqat Aik khawab zinda hai inhi tareeq rahon ka
kay jis bhi raah jana ho wahan bhi main
Akel hun.