05th November 2011

i can actually see the clouds moving, heading towards their unknown destiny. going somewhere and not knowing where. i know how it feels like as i too am moving don't know if i am moving forward or backwards. i've been this way for years now. don't know what it is. i guess i am just wired wrong. i feel the urge to shout at everyone. i feel angry at everyone. wish i knew why. someone actually said something like this to my boss"what has happened to irfan, he has been acting like a angry young man, and i feel scared". when i heard that i was like what? that is so not true . but then i thought about it and it makes me angrier that i am becoming a crackpot who knows nothing except shouting at people so, since then i am trying to be calm which makes me angrier and sad but at least i am not shouting anymore, i stopped arguing as well. i've accepted the fact that i am a misfit so i should let it be. let the world live their way. don't ask don't argue, just obey, just listen and tell them that they are right. just don't listen to what your head is telling you. i actually told my head that i am not going to answer anyone so deal with it :P. btw i've started reading this book called "the piture of dorian grey" and its gooooddd.Eid holidays are starting from tomorrow i kinda wanted it.