Soch Raha Hun...

Sarey rishtey chohd raha hun
pakkey dhagey tohd raha hun
barish ki umeed nahi par
sarey matkey tohd raha hun
totay pal or totay sapney
sabko phir say johd raha hun
sath raha na dost na dushman
bus akela daud raha hun
chup ki chadar udhey ab main
sach ki qabrain khod raha hun
ajj say sunlo main abhi ab to
zinda rehna chohd raha hun

Have Mercy........

I am lying on the floor..and he,,
he is standing right beside me....
waving a blunt axe...with a smile
a triumphant smile..on his face..
as if he has won the battle...
i think he has...or may be he has not...
but i can read his mind ...he is going to kill me...
i know.. still i am not scared ...
suddenly i felt pain in my chest ...
i closed my eyes...and opened again...
and then he strikes ..
once ...
twice .......
thrice.........
i am bleeding now.....
bleeding madly ........
i can feel my clothes..drenched in blood...
he is laughing.....loudly....like a war hero...
i feel pain, so agonizing..but why...
why am i feeling this pain ...
why...i thought i am already dead then why is this so painfull...
he left me there lying in this dark street alone to die....
i waited and waited...but even after several hours passed..
i am not dying....i thought i should try to move ...try to call someone for help...
i tried to move but i cant ...its like i am paralyzed....
then i realized that ...i have blood coming from my mouth too..
i tried to shout call someone for help..
but i am choking ..i am suffocating...still no signs of death ...
suddenly i felt cold....i tired shouting again.....i can do that now..
but now its all so painfull i cant even understand what i am saying...
i cant recognize my own voice....
i called for help...help some one any one......
i called for my friends ..shouted everyone's name...
the ones who used to say ..."we are always with you"...
why cant they hear me now ....when i need them...
they cant be far..but then why cant they hear me...
may be they too have turned thier faces off me like death has...
.
several days passed...i am still lying on this deserted street...
still bleeding still paralyzed...still vomiting blood..
still crying....but now i am not calling any one ...
i am not waiting for help..
i am just waiting for the death to have mercy...

New World Disorder..

The deserted enchantments spread upon centuries...
dreams weaved by worshipers of silk and gold..
spread alongside the streets ..bodies of innocent angles..
soaked in blood and drenched with bitter ashes..
no one can ignore the beauty of demonstration of the sacred battle..
cant just turn your eyes off ..
with the war upon our heads can u even survive the battle cry...
blood ..whats that? ..just the red color ...
nothing to be preserved......the books written on innocence...
lighted in the middle of libraries ...
air filled with tears and smell of alcohol...
demons with ammunition ..swords of money...
cobblers with shoes on there heads....bankers eating currency notes..
alchemists with acid burned faces...inventors hibernating...
square shaped earth...with salty rivers and deserts of platinum..
giant squids all around waiting to squeeze any one...
broken futures and diminished horizons ....
with shadowy sun..and ..eclipsed moon...
thats how it is ...our new world disorder...

Last Confusion..

Your perception makes me feel weak...
my perception makes me feel bound...
your perception makes u feel noble..
my perception makes u feel mistaken..
their perception makes them feel loyal...
my perception makes them feel intolerable..
so tell me dear..who will turn the page..
who will cast the spell..who will open the cage...
i can't see my shadow anymore..its all vague...
vague words...empty thoughts...distorted pictures...
between these two mountains situated a tomb...
built with words so strong but now..
i can't hear anything...its all dusky...
or i have gone blind...but i know..
once i am drowned ..all the demons would die then...
but there still is a confusion ..should i jump myself..
or wait for the giant wave to drown me..