Ajeeb Lagta Hai..

Ajj yeh shehar ajeeb lagta hai
Ab har shakhs ajeeb lagta hai

Yeh sarey din ajeeb lagtey hain..
woh mazi mera ajeeb lagta hai..

atey mausam ajeeb lagtey hain..
aishiana ajeeb lagta hai..

Mera yeh dard ajeeb lagta hai..
Kay tumko khona ajeeb lagta hai..

kho kay pana ajeeb lagta tha
pakey khona ajeeb lagta hai..

kisi ka sath ajeeb lagta hai..
akelapan ajeeb lagta hai..

ab yeh shamain ajeeb lagti hain..
muskurana ajeeb lagta hai..

marna behtar ho shayad ab to..
kiokay jeena ajeeb lagta hai..

Soch Raha Hun...

Sarey rishtey chohd raha hun
pakkey dhagey tohd raha hun
barish ki umeed nahi par
sarey matkey tohd raha hun
totay pal or totay sapney
sabko phir say johd raha hun
sath raha na dost na dushman
bus akela daud raha hun
chup ki chadar udhey ab main
sach ki qabrain khod raha hun
ajj say sunlo main abhi ab to
zinda rehna chohd raha hun

Have Mercy........

I am lying on the floor..and he,,
he is standing right beside me....
waving a blunt axe...with a smile
a triumphant smile..on his face..
as if he has won the battle...
i think he has...or may be he has not...
but i can read his mind ...he is going to kill me...
i know.. still i am not scared ...
suddenly i felt pain in my chest ...
i closed my eyes...and opened again...
and then he strikes ..
once ...
twice .......
thrice.........
i am bleeding now.....
bleeding madly ........
i can feel my clothes..drenched in blood...
he is laughing.....loudly....like a war hero...
i feel pain, so agonizing..but why...
why am i feeling this pain ...
why...i thought i am already dead then why is this so painfull...
he left me there lying in this dark street alone to die....
i waited and waited...but even after several hours passed..
i am not dying....i thought i should try to move ...try to call someone for help...
i tried to move but i cant ...its like i am paralyzed....
then i realized that ...i have blood coming from my mouth too..
i tried to shout call someone for help..
but i am choking ..i am suffocating...still no signs of death ...
suddenly i felt cold....i tired shouting again.....i can do that now..
but now its all so painfull i cant even understand what i am saying...
i cant recognize my own voice....
i called for help...help some one any one......
i called for my friends ..shouted everyone's name...
the ones who used to say ..."we are always with you"...
why cant they hear me now ....when i need them...
they cant be far..but then why cant they hear me...
may be they too have turned thier faces off me like death has...
.
several days passed...i am still lying on this deserted street...
still bleeding still paralyzed...still vomiting blood..
still crying....but now i am not calling any one ...
i am not waiting for help..
i am just waiting for the death to have mercy...

New World Disorder..

The deserted enchantments spread upon centuries...
dreams weaved by worshipers of silk and gold..
spread alongside the streets ..bodies of innocent angles..
soaked in blood and drenched with bitter ashes..
no one can ignore the beauty of demonstration of the sacred battle..
cant just turn your eyes off ..
with the war upon our heads can u even survive the battle cry...
blood ..whats that? ..just the red color ...
nothing to be preserved......the books written on innocence...
lighted in the middle of libraries ...
air filled with tears and smell of alcohol...
demons with ammunition ..swords of money...
cobblers with shoes on there heads....bankers eating currency notes..
alchemists with acid burned faces...inventors hibernating...
square shaped earth...with salty rivers and deserts of platinum..
giant squids all around waiting to squeeze any one...
broken futures and diminished horizons ....
with shadowy sun..and ..eclipsed moon...
thats how it is ...our new world disorder...

Last Confusion..

Your perception makes me feel weak...
my perception makes me feel bound...
your perception makes u feel noble..
my perception makes u feel mistaken..
their perception makes them feel loyal...
my perception makes them feel intolerable..
so tell me dear..who will turn the page..
who will cast the spell..who will open the cage...
i can't see my shadow anymore..its all vague...
vague words...empty thoughts...distorted pictures...
between these two mountains situated a tomb...
built with words so strong but now..
i can't hear anything...its all dusky...
or i have gone blind...but i know..
once i am drowned ..all the demons would die then...
but there still is a confusion ..should i jump myself..
or wait for the giant wave to drown me..

Last Night..

i was sitting in da back ov da car ...
starin outside ...restin my head on my mother's shoulder
dreamin against da dreams ...
dreamin abt da windows dat will remain curtained..
dreamin abt da bedsheet dat will remain folded.....
dremin abt da starts uncounted ..
dreamin abt da stories untold..
dreamin abt da tym unseen
dreamin abt da past forgotten..
dreamin abt da hearts blown away ...
dreamin abt da birds flown away..
in dese past few days ive wept an ocean..
not ov tears but blood..
but 4 da first tym a tear came slidin down my cheek ..
mom saw me ....nd said "i pray, she'll be fine"

Madness at its best

Swinging around my thoughts
an umbrella so color full...
wid butterflies flyin under my bed
i ws sittin watchin outov my window ..
da sun ws playin wid stars ..
nd river ws playin guitar...
tree were signin sumthin sad...
wind ws blowin nd i feel dead..
lyin near my feet ws a ship sank few days ago
nd bodies ov da dead crew
nd thr he is sittin on tower ..
da black owl...wacthin da world closely..
nd thr it is my dead old cat...
my old wall clock ...nd a color pencil set..
a sharp knife to cut myself...
a picture ov harry nd dobby da houseelf..
a torn book ...nd pair ov my old dreams ...
a sleepin beauty nd an old prince charmin..
i can hear da sound ov guitar nd sinigin ov birds
i can here sum1 yellin outside...
is he yellin or is he singin ..
ive lost my mind cant recognize..
da difference b/w a wind nd storm..

Bewitched..

With every passing moment it is becoming strong....
holding me will make it worse...
showing that has make it a curse..
a curse so strong ...i cant survive...
i did what i could in what i had ..
now its you and your will...change it if you can ..
ill be the supporter..a helper and nothing more..
touch me and the curse will break ....
dont do it .and.still the clouds are fake...
the clouds you are trying to produce..
cause you know how it is ...you know everything...
or you have just realized how it is to be at the other end of the shore..
still my request would be ...to be happy and to be what you are ..
and leave me if you want to ...cause me ..i was always bewitched...

Let Me Tell You..

Let me tell you tonight ...
the depth of those words i said ...
let me help you decide..
let me love you once more ...let me say things ive said
ten thousand times before..
i believe ...i believe in your love ..
your love which is everything to me ..
come love ..come once again so i could show you
the ropes which i am tide with ..
they are so strong ...blood dripping ..
you were ..and you are the cure ...
for the injuries ...they gave me..
i know ive hurt you ...so much...
i am sorry love ...forgive me if you can..
i love you ...and believe me when i say there is a god above
cause a men can never create the love like us ..
ive never seen or heard about anything like our love..
come love so i can tell you that where ever i see
i see only you ...every face for me has become your face..
you used to smile ..but i now you are facing it..
which i always feared ..
i am sorry love ..and i will bring back that smile..
which always makes my heart miss a certain beat ..
let me tell you that i love you more then any one in this whole wide world
altough i know you know that still i have to show you
cause that what i am born for ..
i love you cause you run in my vains as blood ..
let me tell you tonight that ive found you again ..
let me telll you once again that i love you ...love

I Love You Forever

Me, i had what it was a feeling so pure
on the earth with symptoms of death it was the cure..
i see you holding a rose near to you i wished i was the rose
u took that dream away ...
i will never tell you how it feels to be alone
i will never send you what i have saved for you
because you have closed your doors
you have taken away the dreams...
left me cry ...on the night so full of stars ...
i wanted to count them with you
you never gave me the chance
i wanted to sit beside you
you left before it happens...
still my love will never shake
i will wait for you till the end of times ...
and if i die ...i will make my tombstone myself
and i will write on it "i love you for ever"