Living this lie

another night and the dreams i cant find ...my fears turned to tears there is love by my side ...she tries to reassure me tells me she adores me ..and i wonder if she knows me or the boy that has died ...its been too many games too many lies and the logical world will just criticize my way as the days go slipping by its not easy living this lie..

Mushkil hai...

Kanch pay chalkey dekha humney..
kanch pay chalna mushkil hai..

paar utar kay dekha humnay
aag ka dariya mushkil hai..

sath nibhaney kay wadey to karna hai asan..
sath nibha kay humney dekha ..
sath nibhana mushkil hai..

daant dapat kay apney dil rokna hai asan ..
dil ki humney sun kay dekha ...
dil ki sunna mushkil hai..

Qufl lagey un darwazon ko todna hai asan..
dastak day kay humney dekha ..
dastak dena mushkil hai..

Some Other Day...!!!!!

I will Write something
but some other day..

i will learn something
but some other day..

i will go some where
some where far from everything..
everything i have ..everything i had..
but some other day..

i will teach some one ..
what i know ...what i saw..
what i got ...what i have been through
but some other day..

i will do something
to make them feel good..
make them feel happy..
make them feel proud..
but some other day..

i will fly some day..
to the clouds...
with the wind ...may be
i will feel lighter then ..
but some other day..

i will cut my self ..
and bleed till i am pure..
the pureness about which i am not sure..
but some other day..

I will fight some day
with everyone...
who pretends to be my friends..
but i know who they are ...
pretenders and only pretenders..
i will tell them what they make me feel
i will fight them
but some other day ...

i will search some day..
for what i need...
and what i want ..
but rite now ...i don't know
what i need and what i want ..
but i will search
what i need and what i want ..
but some other day..

Paradoxical Me

When i close my eyes
i see darkness ...plain darkness
when all i want is a star..
when i open my eyes
i see stars ...lots of stars
when all i want is darkness...plain darkness

When i close my eyes
i see thirst ... killing thirst..
when all i want is water..
when i open my eyes
i see water ..lots of waters
when all i want is thirst ....a killing thirst..

when i close my eyes
i see thorns ...
when all i want is a flower...
when i open my eyes
i see flowers lots of flowers
when all i want is a thorn..

When i close my eyes
i see you
when all i want is solitude ... complete solitude
when i open my eyes
i see solitude ... complete solitude..
when all i want is You...only You...

Stupidity...

I eat the milky way..
i killed lucy grey...
i lied to the fairy god mother..
and played poker with the sea otter..
i tricked the giant dragon...
i wrote that weird slogan...
i pushed humpty dumpty off the wall...
i think i might crawl..
out from the dirty tunnel..
to the new century with holding a funnel...
i stole cindrella's crystal shoe...
that was just a taboo..
on all those dirty mice ..
i told them thrice ...
about the great King Lear..
about julius ceaser and about my fear
of drowning in an ink pot..
that was not an statement...
but a scary thought ...
in my dreams i was a beggar ...
who asks for sleep not for alms....
sleep i want sleep i ask
sleep i live sleep i thought...
i am writing this stupidity ...
cause thats my specialty..

Anonymous...

You live far from me and in me too...
this paradoxical presence suits me too...

I Walk Once Again...

With clouds in my eyes
i walk once again...
to the land far away..
where i can bury my dreams...
or hide them for a while...
so i can walk again..
easily...
won't happen won't happen
it won't happen again ...
i said to myself thousand times..
but time, it never stops ...and i saw the results...
no crying no crying
no crying now, i said to myself...
but they never stop...
the tears ...
stand up...stand up
stand up once again, i said to myself ...
for you have to live...
even if it is without a reason..
reasons ...huh?
reasons ....i have thousand reasons to die...
won't die ...won't die
won't die i said to myself ...
i will walk to the land far away ..
with clouds in my eyes..
i walk once again..